Saturday, February 02, 2008

American Gladiators


Today they had try outs to be a contestant on the show American Gladiators.










What a fun show that was in the 80's, it's great that they are bringing it back. The line for these tryouts was long and wide, wrapping around the building and down the hill.
Watching these potential contestants go through the motions of chin lifts, running, push ups and jumps was fun.


Some of these guys had so many muscles you'd think it would slow them down.



Greta Garbo


An unforgettable face... perfect bone structure...hypnotic eyes... an impenetrable gaze... husky voice...a face capable of registering everything and yet...
Greta Garbo was the ultimate Hollywood star, envied by millions of fans and co-workers. She was a woman who set her own standards and became a legend in her own time...
A friend compared me to Greta Garbo today......not for all of the above lol, but because I don't get out much ;) as Garbo didn't either I guess in her private life.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

The Wedding Site

Wow, I was just asked to have my home used as a place to get married at this summer.
I am very honored that they want to use my house. Wow. How cool is that.
It'll be fun to see the house all gussied up with flowers and ribbons with good music and wonderful people all enjoying themselves. Yes I'm very up for it.

Imagine...my house the Love shack ;)

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Peter Frampton take two


Peter Frampton performing on Fox news
Just when you don't think it could get any worse....
Peter Frampton doing a Geico commercial

Man does this make me feel old.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

All Being Together

Having both my daughter and son home over the holidays was my best present ever. Sarah gave me the original of her design for my son's tattoo, which representing both of them is fabulous. I have it hanging in my livingroom and reminds me of them both.


We really made the most of it and had so much fun. We had a party here and invited everyone and just enjoyed to the max. It was freezing
outside, but had a roaring campfire that was so hot we had to stand at a distance, and the hot tub, people were jumping out making snow angels. Inside we devoured much liquor and food and had the best time. I wimped out and went to bed around 4 am, folks were still partying. It was fun seeing alot of guys that I hadn't seen in a long time.


Christmas Cookie Bake

The Cookie bake this year was very fun as anticipated. Sarah decorated cookies as below, and I made biscotti, that actually turned out pretty good.
What a very fun time, the holiday season, being with great friends and making cookies. Thanks Denise!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

No December 2007 entry

I can't believe that I've allowed this much time to go by without talking about the holidays and my son being home!
This is the first time that I allowed a month to go by that I didn't have any entry at all. So there is no December 2007 on this blog.
It was just the best all being together.

I will post some pictures later. It's late and have been working alot so that's why I haven't done so.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Lake Tahoe



Went on Vacation to Lake Tahoe a few weeks back and had the best time. Listened to the Lone Survivor a book on tape, just riveting. Enjoyed the family tremendously, got out on the Lake and I even won the Blackjack tournament, me! The one who doesn't like to gamble! While all the family was joining in, I thought it would be fun and just had the best luck. My brother helped me know how to split my last hand which ended up winning the tournament. While in the casino's, our whole family would be at the roulette table and I kept betting on the number 25, (that's when my divorce was final). It hit several times along with other dates or numbers. We all came away winners, but you have to respect the reality that one could lose everything.
We camped out in tents some in RV's all being together at the campground and it was just great. Pancakes always taste good in camp and the time just went by too quickly. We had a campfire, with marshmallows and of course s'mores, the ritual Miniature golf, although some also went to the real golf course and had a great time as well. Walked through the craft faire that they have there every year, tasted delicious fresh squeezed lemonade, and did the all you can eat buffet more than once being all together. Spent alot of time on the lake, and the swimming pool too.


Crater Lake




After Tahoe, we drove up to Oregon, and I was able to see many friends. It was a last minute decision going to Oregon, but everything worked out. Saw everyone pretty much just except for a few folks. On our way to Oregon we went via Crater Lake, what a beautiful place, it still had snow there.

We only had three days, the first day we walked around Eugene a bit, a really great place, had lunch with John, then out to see Archie and Lila for the best coffee, then later had pizza and beer with John and Kathy and their nephew Bobby Lynn, (Bob and Judy's son). Then went to some of my old haunts with Anne and Dave, Max's and Taylors to name a few. The next day we drove out to Dexter to see Sean and Patrick then had lunch back in Eugene with Marykate at the 5TH Street Market, then out to Veneta to an artsy carnival that Mike and Jenny were in charge of, lots of great live music then we drove back to North Eugene for dinner out with Skip. The next day we went out to the coast and spent alot of time playing on the beach at different places. Stopped at Yachats and had some great sea food there, then drove back to Eugene and spent the night at Barb's house. Leaving the next day we got a late start we stopped in Sisters to see Linda and then started the long haul back to Colorado. We did it in two days though this time. We knew we were getting closer to Denver when we started seeing mostly all Subaru's lol.

What a great trip it was, now back to work. I have to organize all of my photos and that will be alot of work but fun going through the pictures.

Friday, July 06, 2007


I attended the Danny Dietz Dedication on July 4TH. It was really meaningful and wonderful, and I'm glad that I was able to be there. Shook hands with the Secretary of the Navy, and Tom Tancredo, and I was in the presence of high ranking military types and hero's. Saw one of my son's "bosses", and he told me that he couldn't promise to keep him safe, that my son could end up like Danny, but he said he could guarantee that he had the best leadership. Very hard words to hear for me. He went on to say how my son was one of the best pilots. With all of this I told him how I was very proud of him, but how I also hoped that he wouldn't re-enlist again. With that he said, "and that's why it's good that 'mom's' aren't the ones making the decision". Also spoke with several mom's that lost their son's in Iraq, that was really hard. So yes, I'm very glad that I was able to be there. I should have taped the news, as I didn't see any of the coverage, but being there in person was very important for me, and really meant alot.

My family reunion in Ireland was just wonderful. Meeting many cousins for the very first time was awesome. We live so far apart being the reason for not getting together sooner. Some came from Australia, England and here from the United States, along with the ones that live in Ireland. I wish we didn't live so far apart, as my cousins are just terrific and I wish that I could spend more time with them. This is the group shot of most of us that made the trip over to Horse Island where my grandparents home was and still stands behind us.
Had the best time in Ireland, Scotland and England. This trip was the trip of a lifetime for me. I really am very happy that I was able to go. I was sad that my kids weren't able to be with me and meet our relatives, but it'll have to be another time. I don't think I'll ever go back with the high expense and all, but who knows, it would be nice to think I could go back again with my son and daughter.
For me flying into London, and spending 2 days there was fun. Saw Buckingham Palace, missed seeing the queen by 10 minutes and half a block I like to say. My girlfriend who traveled with me, and I were strolling along not far from Buckingham Palace, unaware of the queen honoring the Falkland Island soldiers, but saw the fly overs and all the soldiers decked out in their uniforms with all of the medals dangling from them along with all of the added security. A woman said, oh wasn't the queen just grand?! We could have had we known. Oh well. While in London, we did one of those hop on hop off bus tours that drop you off at all of the sites, so we saw everything there. Big Ben, St Paul's Cathedral, the Tower, Piccadilly, a ride on the Thames, just everything. We also went to a live theater performance of 'The Hounds Of Baskerville' which was a real hoot.
We then flew into Edinburgh Scotland, toured the Castle there, and the royal mile which is incredible as well. I'm still mad at myself for not buying a kilt there. Anyway, Scotland was fabulous. We also took a bus tour up to Loch Ness and it stopped at several castles and other tourist stops. Our tour guide Fiona, said how they don't like to refer to the Loch Ness monster as the monster, rather they refer to her as the Sea Creature. She added that while she's never seen her, her mom has. ;)
We then flew into Dublin. Saw the Dublin Castle and the Cathedral. Saw the Blarney castle kissing the Blarney stone, ran into my brother's family in the gift shoppe there, that was crazy, but with all of our families converging on our family reunion it was probably bound to happen. Seeing the family and the reunion was just fabulous. The family reunion, seeing Horse Island, going over to the Skelligs Island, all were just incredible. My grandparents house on Horse Island (picture above) was still standing, I was told that the structure was around 300 years old. The roof had caved in and no one was living in it obviously, the Island is inhabited with only sheep. The last cousin to leave the house was in 1959. After the reunion, we went up to Cahriciveen and met another cousin Mary at the gift shoppe and she showed us the cathedral where my grandmother, was baptized, confirmed and married there. We continued up towards Galway and saw the Cliffs of Moher, just beautiful, also saw the Burren area. This had 3000 BC stone structures that were just amazing to see. We took a tour and the tour guide was telling us about how the Irishmen were building stone walls and eating beef while the pyramids were being built. Quite the comparison, I didn't realize that folks even lived in Ireland, that part of the world back then.
All of the experiences of the narrow roads and driving on them, driving with the stick shift on the left, no sidewalks with everyone pushing strollers, riding bikes and electric wheelchairs on the twisty turny narrow roads was quite the experience that I will never forget. Especially with the speed limit being 100 KM's! The bed and breakfasts were charming, the breakfasts were great too. One thing that surprised me was that not many accepted VISA, making it necessary to carry alot of cash with you. It seems that Ireland is just now coming into it's own, that it has been pretty depressed economically up until now. I asked someone about if they ever planned on widening the roads, and they said no, that it would only encourage more folks to move there. It was great going to all of these countries and having everyone speaking English. Although the accents even of some of my relatives was hard to understand sometimes. I loved all of the Guinness, the fact that our reunion was held in a pub that obviously many were regulars there.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Grandma

I just got some great news. A friends daughter is pregnant and her due date is February!
She was so excited when she called me, and I am so happy for her.
WOO HOO!
I wish for good health throughout this pregnancy.
;)

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Stupidity

Last week I felt I was getting a urinary tract infection, I haven't had one of those in years. Actually I can't remember when the last time I've had one.
Anyway, I was feeling very cold at home thinking it was just because it was cold outside, so I got under the electric blanket and felt better. In hind sight, I had an extremely high fever and was chilling. Not wanting to pay the high copay if I went to the ER, I waited until Tuesday since it was a 3 day weekend, to be seen and get the necessary antibiotics to start taking. Allowing the infection more time to fester and get truly out of hand was horrible and I got extremely sick. I am much better now but man did it knock me for a loop. While I'm feeling better, I'm still feeling very drained and just tired. Next time if I feel I'm coming down with something, I'll bite the bullet and pay the higher copay and go into the ER.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

A friend sent me this photo and I really like it so here it is; Today I'm cleaning my fish tank. I also have to get more food, they are ravenous! I'm getting more rocks and plants to change it up a bit.
I have the most interesting fish, it hurt me losing a few fish with the recent power outage we had recently. But it's probably a good thing with how fast they have been growing.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Mother's Day









What a wonderful Mother's Day I had, it's been a fabulous week. Not to sound too sappy here but it still is responsible for my great mood that I'm in ;)


I don't know where quite to start, so I'll start somewhere in the middle just to be different.


My son called me from wherever he was to wish me a Happy Birthday and Happy Mother's Day. I was in heaven for those precious few minutes. I know how hard it is for him to make time with his military work/commitments so this meant the world to me.
My daughter also called me and we will get together in a few weeks to get facials and pedicures together, what fun that will be. My birthday was wonderful as I described earlier.
At work I had these beautiful flowers delivered to me from my kids and everyone at work got to enjoy them with me. They all told me what great kids I had and of course that just made me beam with more pride, as I do have the greatest kids. I had to laugh as they know where I've been living lately, and it's been at work ha ha to have the flowers delivered at work. I moved the flowers around to different places at work to enjoy them throughout the day and now I've brought them home to enjoy.
Just being remembered in such a wonderful way is just the best, and I thank you all for it. A very humbling experience.

Rereading this I noticed that I keep referring to my kids as "kids". I must say they are wonderful young adults in their own right these days. So I shouldn't refer to them as kids. I do believe they will each change the world for the better in their own special way. Actually I feel as if they already have in some ways ;)




Thursday, May 10, 2007

Birthday Surprise!

Today has been my birthday, one in which many friends and family remembered me and called, emailed and invited me for a birthday dinner along with cake and ice cream.
I am still whelmed. First to be remembered, as when a person gets older, celebrations seem to fade and dates are forgotten usually. So being remembered with a phone call was wonderful, but then to be given presents along with cake and ice cream was really great.
I have the best family and friends, thank you.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

May Day Baby!


Today is my Daughter's birthday! I'm so proud to be her mom.



Smart, talented, gifted, focused, caring, loving, witty, artistic, clever, honest, thoughtful, zany, beautiful, considerate, gentle heart, good friend, loving daughter and sister, supportive, healthy, bursting full of integrity and honor.

Did I mention energy? That too!

Did I leave anything out? I hope not.

You shine every day and in every way.


I love you! Mom

Saturday, April 28, 2007

The Circle Of Life

...........Barb, Barb, Me, Linda...........


Or should it be the circle of death. I lost a very good friend of mine the other day. She was taken way too early in this lifetime. The reality of her truly being gone is still hitting me.

Sean . Barb . John . Kip . Barb
I've been remembering all of the fun times that we shared. Telling and retelling the stories over and over again in my head. What a wild bunch we were back in that period of time. She was such a wonderful person, a wonderful mother and wife who brought laughter and comfort to many. One of my best friends.

John Barb me and Skip
All the crazy camping trips, drinking, hot springs, dating, closing down Max's and going to Kip's house staying up all night. Spending time at the ocean, and just being together laughing around the campfire talking about Bigfoot. Good times, Canadian Mist, Charter, and our beloved Home brew. Listening to The McKenzie River Boys, Mike Cross, all the frantic road trips, and just being together will always be wonderful memories that I will cherish. Getting proficient at walking past the dart game to get to the bathrooms ;)





Fennelli . me . Barb . John . Barb
To get together for a funeral, the first in my age group is really hitting me. First not in any particular order, it's the celebration of coming into your own, first car, the milestone birthdays, your own graduation, buying your first home, marriage, kid's birth's and their graduations. Then you have the accomplishments of your children and their celebrations of life. It seems that I've moved right up the hill to funerals. I'm not ready for them yet. Isn't there another step along this trail of life to have happen before funerals?



John Barb and Barb

I'll just have to come up with something. Meanwhile, here's to you Barb, I raise my glass of Guinness Stout in your honor, since I don't have any decent home brew nearby. You already are missed so much. I will make my next home brew batch in your honor and celebrate your memory wake fashion this summer.

Best Friends
A more recent photo;
I'm happy to say that I've lost weight since that picture was taken.


Sean . Barb . me . Barb

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Kurt Vonnegut

Kurt Vonnegut died today.

link

I loved many of his writings. Time to get them out and reread a few....

I Did It!

I've been feeling pretty upbeat lately, a feeling that I haven't really felt in a long time. (man, why does everything remind me of Star Wars, I'm such a geek) I think it may be due to some of my hard work paying off slowly but surely.
Also today a real sense of accomplishment, I was able to deal with my phone and computer not working properly and I was able to fix it by troubleshooting using only me. I was having trouble going online and I fixed it! Yay!
Also anticipating this big spring storm that's coming in, I've prepared for it and that's also a great feeling.
So there! Not much else, but today has been a very good day. I'm still riding high from last week's April Fools joke too ;)

Sunday, April 01, 2007

April Fool's Day In Action

Hawha! I feel so very devious ;) Snidley Whiplash reborn heh.

I got my daughter good with an April Fool's joke this time! WooHoo!

I've been riding high most of the day knowing this. ;)

I was instant messaging with her, I also emailed my son, and got him good too.
I guess it's all in the family..... ;)



Saturday, March 10, 2007

What character are you?

Folks have been doing surveys all over, but I really liked this one.
I was Jean Luc Picard

link

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day....


Well.....it's that time of year again......I've had friends trying to hook me up, fast forwarding to the 'get a guy' mode......pahleeze don't do me any favors. It'll happen if it's meant to be on my own time, but I'm not ready for any of it yet.
I still question my instincts for judging people, and I need to get more comfortable with myself first before I can even think of being with someone else.
Is this (link below) what I have to look forward to?
lol
OMG!

Saturday, January 13, 2007

The Long And Winding Road....


Well, everything is okay, or my new saying of "it's all good" is appropriate here.
While driving home last night from work, I fell asleep. I awoke when I hit an orange construction barrel driving up the mouth of the canyon.
Pretty scary, I usually pull over to take a nap, but with the snow there was no areas to pull over so I was planning on waiting until after I got through the construction area and then pulling over. I hit two of the barrels before I was able to steer the car back into my lane, meanwhile I must have scared the you know what out of the guy behind me.
My car is okay too thankfully. I don't plan to pick up anymore late night shifts, only day shifts.

Crazy Weather

I still have several feet of snow here at my house, while the snow looks so pretty, the wind however.....isn't as much fun.
Last week there were several ground blizzards that made the drive home interesting. All was good, but a bit scary that other cars may not see me, or me them.
I have wonderful neighbors, my driveway not only has been plowed, but nicely groomed to access my steps and dumpster.
With my southern exposure, my livingroom is toasty warm with the sunshine, and it enables me to enjoy looking out to the beautiful snow, while sitting in a sunny spot drinking a tasty brew.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Christmas

My daughter and I had a fabulous time Christmas eve with good friends, food and merriment, along with a white elephant gift exchange that is always a fun time.
Then this morning we enjoyed Christmas morning together. We went on a walk and it was beautiful out. It was fun getting out and seeing the neighborhood covered in snow. My son wasn't able to be here being in the military, where ever he is I hope he's safe. He is missed dearly. However, he called me and when I asked him where he was, he just told me "just don't ask", he sounded great though.
Last week Colorado had quite the blizzard. The airport was shut down for two days, and the hospital had declared a state of emergency not allowing any of us nurses to leave. I was at the hospital for three days and two nights, but it wasn't too bad, I had a clean bed, shower, toothpaste, and they washed my uniform. Plus, I got paid for every minute that I was there. I even got paid for sleeping, not too shabby since I was in major overtime. I was worried about a possible electrical outage at home, and having pipes freeze. I got home to find that everything was good, with no problems. There was easily 3 some feet of snow, and I couldn't see the railing on the deck outside while sitting at the computer. Pretty impressive amount of snow, but there were some drifts involved too. There is still a couple feet of snow here several days later, and my driveway isn't plowed out. A neighbor told me they tried, but it was too steep and the amount of snow was just too much. They told me they would try in a couple of days to plow it out again. I have the best neighbors.
As we walked up the hill to the house through the deep snow, I had crunched down a path kind of, we started singing over the mountain and through the woods to grandmothers house we go..., and changed it to mom's house. Having to hike up to the house from the road through the snow just made it more special. I just love it here. ;)
We enjoyed the hot tub after our walk and it was very relaxing. Sarah rolled in the snow:
View this video montage created at One True Media
jumping from hot tub into snow ;)
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I talked with M****, she was having a hard time, as B**'s birthday was the 24th. She told me that she went out to dinner with family to one of B**'s favorite restaurants in his honor. I thought it was great that they went there as it was keeping his memory alive. I asked her if she had watched the DVD of his birthday celebration from the year before, and she said no. I suggested that maybe it would be a good time to watch it with family. As it was such a fun time with many speaking honoring him. I do hope it helps, remembering the good times.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Best Of Times

I had to work Thanksgiving, so celebrated on Friday.
Since I live up in the mountains, I invited friends to stay over so as not to have to drive back down the hill to the city after eating and partying, (with those chocolate mint chip martini's that I have mentioned here before). So ended up having a wonderful breakfast deal as well.
What a fabulous time. Being together with great people, and good food is simply the best of times. It was a big group and everything came together beautifully. The preparation, delivery and clean up was simply amazing in how it happened so smoothly. Real pro's.
Thanks everyone for your friendship and caring,
I love you all.

Monday, November 20, 2006

She's a really nice girl but....

It's funny how you can say terrible things about a person, but if you preface it with;
"I really like so and so but...."
or "so and so is really nice, but..."
or "poor thing she really needed alot of help but...." (I'm guilty here heh.)
Saying that little phrase with the slam seems to make it okay somehow, or does it?
I've noticed that some folks I've been around lately have really perfected this practice.
I've started pointing this out in this group and it's begun to be a pretty funny deal. I'm kind of happy how it all shook out.

Icing On The Cake...

Most know that I've been working alot, but that it's a good thing. Today really sucked the big one. It was the last of a long string of days in a row, and one of my patients ended up having a psychotic episode which ruined my whole day. Poor thing she really needed alot of help, but meanwhile she was incoherent, yelling non stop, and incontinent hurling poop all over, throwing her food etc etc. Enough said, it was a horrible fucking day. Then after transferring her to a better place for her to get the right treatment, a lockdown facility, we learn that she had lice. They called me up to bitch that I didn't tell them she had the lice. Hell I didn't know that she had them and immediately started scratching. I stayed an extra hour after the end of my shift changing out of my clothes and showering with kwell, not wanting to contaminate my car or house. The end to a perfect day, NOT! Well now I'm home and my hair is brittle after shampooing with the kwell, wonderful stuff, but at least I'm lice free. Just one more application in a week. Sigh.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Rumsfeld

While visiting the music sites on You Tube, I came across this one of Rummy that I thought pretty funny:

Rumsfeld

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Smoke On The Water, Fire In The Sky...

While driving home the other day, I had been stuck behind all kinds of traffic, with alot of construction crap going on as well, my daughter always used to tell me, it happens, "just to piss you off".
Well, just as I got into the passing lane and out from all the construction, and about to really open it up, 'Smoke On The Water' came on the radio, one of my all time favorite tunes. Because of an earlier speeding ticket that I got from having the radio so loud I didn't hear the radar detector going off, (major fuck up), I slowed down so as not to worry about missing any radar, and to really enjoy the music.
Ahhhh, back to my roots, heh.
When I got home, I listened to several renditions looped of Machine Head

Deep Purple.......Music soothes the soul.......The Idea

;)

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

What A Rectum!

“You know, education, if you make the most of it, if you study hard and you do your homework, and you make an effort to be smart, uh, you, you can do well. If you don’t, you get stuck in Iraq" John Kerry


Scrappleface: "Let me make this crystal clear, as crystal clear as I can make it; It's not the fault of the Iraqi's that your country has become purgatory for our bad students. I hope everyone, Sunni, Shia, and freedom-fighting insurgent alike will find it in their hearts to forgive me." John Kerry

I was shocked by Kerry's comments the other day. For him to not clarify his meaning immediately, if he indeed flubbed by not telling the joke right, is one thing. But to delay apologizing or at least address his comments, spoke volumes and seemed to be out of fear of his damaging the elections, not because he wanted to apologize to the Troops.
These days, you have to be very smart, with todays military everything is computerized and very high tech.
I am very proud of my son in the military, and to slam him and others in the service, how dare you. I certainly don't want you to be my son's Commander In Chief!

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Riding Shotgun

While walking out to my car tonight after a very long shift (which started the day before), I was very tired. I was walking through a construction area and not many folks were out walking. A group of 4 or 5 guys were behind me being fairly rowdy, speaking english mixed with another language, but then shouted out "I've got a shotgun", or I thought that's what I heard. A shot ran through me (figuratively speaking) and I hastened my step and walked to the other side of some pillars, when I realized he was shouting out how he wanted to RIDE shotgun. Man did I feel stupid.
Now that I'm alone, in many ways, I catch myself with frequent feelings of being scared in various situations. I'm a strong person, but sometimes I get caught up in worry.
I'm working on it. It was still good to get to my car and lock the door.
sigh.....

Monday, October 23, 2006

My Friends

My friends have overlooked my shortcomings,
and have seen me through some pretty dark days;

But they have really brightened up the rest of them.

I am so
............very glad,
............................honored,
...........................................and just damn lucky.

I love you all, you are my life blood, our closeness, caring and support of one another means so much, and is one of the things in life that makes life worth living.
Thanks

Sunday, October 22, 2006

A Beautiful Wedding With Chocolate Mint Chip Martini's

My daughter and I went to a very good friend's wedding Friday night. What a fun time. Good friends together, celebrating a happy occasion. The bride was just beautiful, and the ceremony was very nice. The dancing for hours after was very fun, with good food, drinks and visiting.
Icing on the cake as they say were the chocolate mint chip martini's at the open bar ; )


Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Remembering Michael Monsoor

Falling on a grenade, intentionally sacrificing your own life to save that of your men, is often cited as the noblest kind of heroism in combat.
Petty Officer 2nd Class Michael A. Monsoor did exactly that to save his fellow SEALs.

Because I want to honor Michael Monsoor here on my site;
Here Is a portion Eloquently Told By Froggy:

In the Presence of Greatness;

I had the distinct honor and privilege of attending the memorial service for PO2 (SEAL) Michael Monsoor yesterday at the First Presbyterian Church in San Diego. Being in the presence of so many true warriors to celebrate the heroic death of one of our own was utterly humbling and poignant. Information about Mike's death in Ramadi on 29 Sep 06 has been sketchy in the media, but the story of this man's service and his death is one that deserves not only to be told, but to be celebrated and certainly never forgotten.
First of all, Mike grew up in Garden Grove, CA (Orange County) with his parents and two brothers and one sister. His father is a Vietnam veteran and one of his brothers served in the Marine Corps. Speaker after speaker at the service took special care to recognize Mike's family and to make the connection between his character and his family's quiet service and patriotism. One of Mike's teammates said, "These are the people that I'm fighting to protect." I spent a few moments with his mother afterwards and her grace and composure under such difficult circumstances clearly demonstrated the genesis of Mike's own calmness and resolve under fire and inspired me to continue to instill these traits in my own children.
SEAL Team THREE deployed to Iraq last Spring and within a month of arriving, Mike had already distinguished himself. As one of the platoon machine gunners, Mike made quite an impression on the battlefield. On May 9, 2006 a teammate was shot in the legs, immobile, and exposed. Suppressing enemy fire with his M60, Mike fought his way to his wounded comrade's position and dragged him out of the line of fire while maintaining constant pressure on enemy insurgents with his weapon. That action earned him a Silver Star... in the first month of his first deployment.
Fast forward to the final weeks of that deployment and Mike along with two fellow SEALs were occupying an overwatch position on a rooftop in the Mulab district of Ramadi which is basically the most dangerous neighborhood of the most dangerous city in Iraq. A hidden enemy managed to toss a grenade onto the rooftop near the three SEALs, and Mike without hesitation warned his comrades verbally before placing himself in a position to block the lethal blast of the grenade from killing his teammates. One of the SEALs he saved said that Mike's countenance was completely calm and he showed no fear only resolve. No short timer's disease infecting this man, he had only a couple of weeks remaining in the deployment and he did not flinch at the moment of truth.
On the rostrum, all three SEALs whose lives Mike personally saved hobbled up together to thank Michael and his family for their very existence and to show their family's gratitude for sparing them the grief that Michael's family is now experiencing. I have never witnessed something as special and inspiring in my entire life-I have never even heard of such a thing happening before.

Sympathy cards to Michael's family are being collected by the great people at Soldier's Angels.

Family of Michael A. Monsoor
C/O Patriot Support
716 Centre of New England Blvd. #173
Coventry, RI 02816

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Eyes Wide Open

This was a very powerful exhibition in our Civic Center Park here in Denver.

"Eyes Wide Open".

http://afsc.org/eyes/


No matter what side of the debate you're on, for or against the war, this was numbing. Reading the cards and letters attached, and looking at the photo's.



A very good friend of mine was one of the volunteers that worked putting out all of the boots, and it took them well over 7 hours while out in the rain.

As meaningful as seeing all of these boots were, we still need to keep focused on what's important. Not allowing these lives to be for naught.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

George Harrison Spot On


Give me loveGive me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light Give me life
Keep me free from birth

Give me hope Help me cope,
with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soulOM M M M M My Lord . . .

PLEASE take hold of my hand,
that I might understand you
Won't you please
Oh won't you Give me love Give me love

Give me peace on earth Give me light
Give me life Keep me free from birth
Give me hope Help me cope,
with this heavy load
Trying to,
touch and reach you with,
heart and soulOM M M M My Lord . . .

Won't you please
Oh won't you Give me love Give me love
Give me peace on earth Give me light
Give me life Keep me free from birth

Give me hope Help me cope,
with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

Give me love Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light Give me life
Keep me free from birth

Give me hope Help me cope,
with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soulOM M M M M My Lord . . .

link

Monday, October 02, 2006

Emily, Rest In Peace


For the tragic senseless killing that occured last week at Platte Canyon High School. The sexual molestation or rape that happened too makes it just all the more ugly.

For this to happen at any of our schools is horrible, but to happen in this small community; it will never have the same feel as it used to have.

In past tragic stories related to school murders, it's always been students gone crazy, to know that this was a strange man that just walked into the school with guns, that he was allowed to walk through the hallways freely.

The community has been pulling together and supporting and talking with each other more, and hopefully the many counselors will be able to help the kids and families deal with this senseless killing. The last bonfire that took place at the Farmers Union Park, really had a healing feel to it. The sounds from the river and the bonfire crackling and just being together seemed to grow strength. This past week with our Aspen trees being in full color, it was as though nature had given Emily a beautiful bouquet.

Signs have been popping up everywhere on our roads as well. Emily Rest in Peace, You're in a Better Place, RIP, and the one posted above made by my very lovely friends.

Our local Pinecam:
http://www.pinecam.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=35957

News article about Emily:
http://www.thedenverchannel.com/news/9988734/detail.html?rss=den&psp=news

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Worse Than Elevator Music!


OMG!

As I awoke this morning, I turned on the TV news as I often do on my day off.
Peter Frampton was playing and I turned to see a grey haired old man.
No more golden locks. Worse than elevator music!
I guess I had stopped keeping up with his music for awhile. He did still sound hot however, for some redemption here. But to be reduced to performing on Fox news, sigh. He was promoting his new album, or I guess it's called his new CD now, of Fingerprints.

Not to EVEN remenice about Humble Pie. I'll save that for another entry.

link here

Do You Feel Like We Do?
Woke up this morning
with a wine glass in my hand
Whose wine, what wine, where the hell did I dine?

Must have been a dream
I don’t believe where I’ve been
Come on - you wanna do it again?
Do you, you feel like I do?
Do you, you feel like I do?

My friend got busted
just the other day
They said don’t walk,
don’t walk, don’t walk away

He drove into a taxi
bent the boot hit the back
Had to play some music otherwise he’d crack
Do you, you feel like I do? Do you, you feel like I do?

Champagne for breakfast
and a sherman in my hand
***** top, ***** tails -
never fails

Must have been a dream
I don’t believe where I’ve been
Come on - you wanna do it again?
Do you, you feel like I do? Do you, you feel like I do?

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

The Best Way To Welcome The New Moon

Well my closing was today and everything went great without a hitch as they say. A wonderful friend came with me for support and really was a great help to me. Writing down closing on the calendar earlier and seeing that the new moon was also on this date made it seem so right.
I celebrated with a very nice salmon dinner grilled out on the BBQ, and some Champagne with good friends.
WOO HOO!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Late Posting

I'm still slow at figuring out how to manuever around on the computer, so sorry about this late post. I wanted to have this link be on my previous post where I talked about mom. oh well.

blogalready: Friday The 13th

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Happy Birthday Mom!

Today used to be my mom's birthday, so I've been thinking about her more today than usual.
I was off today and sat outside on the deck after a thunderstorm passed through, enjoying my pansies and the fresh smells that a rain brings about.
I really miss mom. What true inspiration she always was to me. Never one to complain about aches and pains, instead always interested in you and what you're doing. To have family that would remember her and tell of her many good deeds that she did for them when they were younger, just pretty amazing.
Mom always introduced me to all of the sports while growing up, which was so awesome. She also taught me how important family is by so many get togethers while growing up, and the many family oriented vacations.
Mom made me feel that I could be or do anything that I put my mind to.
With the kids, she would help transport them to their many activities when I was still at work not being home yet to do so myself. She loved being so actively involved. We would go to the many swim meets, football games, band concerts and school plays to name a few, and have alot of laughs and fun times.
She wouldn't have missed being with her family for the world.
Here's a link:
blogalready: Friday The 13th

Thanks mom

Monday, July 24, 2006

Wake Up And Smell The Coffee

So what do you do when you have a responsibility to move motorcycles and spotlights and other items off the property having been in contempt of court for many months because you've not done so? Or that you haven't done the taxes and other paperwork that is long overdue?

Why go on vacation why not?!

Well that's what I'm faced with. Instead of getting this crap off my property, he up and leaves on vacation. I need to get a mortgage, which means an appraisal needs to get done. With all of this junk sitting on the property it's really hurting the appearance and will effect my appraisal. He knows this and does nothing.

I have been more than understanding not filing contempt of court charges on him which would put his ass in jail and he'd also have to pay fines to the court. I hope he doesn't force my hand to do so in order to get this done.

He still isn't working, while at my place he was eyeing a small piece of copper pipe that was on the ground asking if he could have it so that he could make some wind chimes to make some money. Hell, I'm planning on turning that stuff in for scrap metal.

Again, what entire bullshit, I felt like I had to pick him up and dust him off again. Telling him that he's a college educated man and that he better get a job with medical insurance. He can work anywhere, get a job and then get an apartment close to his workplace, move his shit from the storage facility to his apartment and move on. But that would make too much sense, much easier to just up and leave on vacation. If he doesn't get a job with medical insurance he will be in danger of losing his financial future for the kids if he ever gets really hurt. But he's not thinking about any of it.

He was telling me how sorry he is that he hurt me, blah blah blah. This he learned only after his soulmate kicked his ass out. The timing is just too much of a stretch here. While explaining how sorry he is, his posturing striking his chest telling me how it hurts here. Show me with actions of getting the junk off the property, and getting the paperwork done, not words. What entire bullshit. He tells me he's seeing a psychiatrist now, but all he seems to have been doing is ruining my relationship with my neighbors. I heard from one of my neighbors info that only he could have perpetrated. Also telling one neighbor that I hate him, how absurd, even worse if my neighbor believes him. He just wants more empathy. Get off your ass and deal, and move your shit off my property.

Oh and get this, he talked a friend into asking me if he could use one of the rooms downstairs to store his shit and he'd pay me for it. Since I needed money. Unfuckingbelievable. The only reason I need money is that I have to pay his ass so much, and he wants to store his shit in my house? Get a grip here, get your stuff out of my life and let's make a clean split here. Yeah he has no money so he goes on yet another vacation, I wish his counselor would wake up and smell the coffee.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Pansies




My daughter gave me these beautiful Pansies on my birthday and they are just gorgeous. I've been enjoying them all summer long. They also remind me of mom as they were always one of her favorites. I love that I have lots of different colors and types, as chosen by my daughter ;)


Sunday, June 25, 2006

Reins

With all of the drama going on with L**, drinking, depression, desperation, everyone being pissed at him, his soulmate having kicked his ass out, his stuff thrown into a storage place, no where to stay, no real job, still in the diversion program, drug testing etc etc.

He needs to do some real soul searching. For him to be feeling sorry for himself is understandable, but don't drag it out. Recognize it and deal.

I recognize that he needs rescuing again. I can't do this, so I have notified his sister and let her know what's been happening to the best of my knowledge. I am transferring 'the reins' to her / his family to watch over him now. I have been covering for him probably being the worst enabler for years. But also rescued him repeatedly. His anxiety attacks were pretty trippy alone.

It would be nice to think he would actually figure his shit out for himself.

Everyone must remember how he has always been good at manipulation and the telling of half truths twisting the real truth. To everyone, beware.

Bud

Today was/is my dad's birthday when he was alive. To me it's still his 'day', and I always find myself thinking about him. [ Pictures to be added later, I'm not at home now.]

When Bud was a young man growing up in Tennessee, with his mom and brothers Emerald and Selwyn, and sister Georgia, his father (my grandfather) left his mother(my grandmother). So Bud (Jamie) being the oldest son (Aunt Georgia was the oldest),found himself supporting his mother and family growing up faster than most I guess.

Bud used to work in a lumber mill working very hard, working in very labor intensive type jobs. I remember seeing pictures of him as a young guy, pretty damn good looking if you ask me. It's as though he 'worked out' all of the time in his work ;)

Buddy was a great story teller. I grew up with such wonderful stories of the crank, a big gigantic bird that preyed on little children and was always associated with kids having to walk through a dense forest and be confronted with this crank in different type situations. Or the pink and blue pills that made you invisible and you could carry big watermelons out of stores without detection. I can still picture the watermelons floating in thin air as he had described them as being seen by the folks around us. His imagination was incredible, and he was very witty and quick thinking. I was surprised a bit learning how some friends were only read to, I was so very lucky to have my dad make up stuff from his incredible imagination and it went in so many directions without boundary's.

While waiting for mom to do her shopping in the grocery store, we'd wait for her out in the car, and he would test us with our vision. He was like a hawk. He would ask us to read something very far away or test us in looking at something very far away, he could see it very clearly, his vision was tremendous.

My dad however was very superstitious. I wonder if this is something ingrained in you if you ever live in the south. When we would be stopped at a railroad crossing, he wouldn't let me count the railroad cars, telling me it was bad luck, and he was serious.

He also drove taxi in SF for 25 years, he chain smoked but quit when the surgeon general came out with the dangers of smoking. He quit cold turkey. As a kid in school, all of the Father's Day presents that the teacher would help us make were ash trays and stuff and I couldn't make those. While driving taxi, he would take me on all of the fun steep streets of San Fran and it was as though he was taking me on an amusement ride. I still remember being thrown out of my seat giggling with laughter. No seat belts back then. When I was learning how to drive, he made me have to pass 'his' test before I could drive. At the time, I hated it, but now am very happy, as I basically learned defensive driving to the max. Knowing how to pull trailers etc.

I also remember hanging out with my dad while he'd take the car in to be serviced. I would stay in the car while it was pumped up into the air so they could work under neath it. Can't do that anymore, but what fun times. I would peer out over the whole garage seeing stuff from that perspective that only I could see. In alot of ways it was like being in my tree house.

He was excellent at shooting and bow and arrow. He was expert in shooting, and he would compete with a hunting bow with others that used precision bows and he would win many competitions. I was there and he would hoist me up on his shoulders. Bud made me very proud. Bud taught me all the techniques of proper stance et all with the bow, and I got to be pretty good too. Bud also showed me how to fill bullet shells, and we would spend hours doing this. He had quite the collection of guns and rifles, but in later life he started whittling on them which was sad to see. While he was in his right mind, he did seem to lose some of his sharpness in later years. My dad was a very strong, big guy that people listened to. He was also a very honest man with integrity. A handshake of agreement actually meant something back in those days. Taking someone at their word. How I wish he were still alive to know his grandchildren, he'd be so very proud of them as well, and they him.

We lived in San Francisco for many years, where my dad worked in security of some sort patrolling the Golden Gate Bridge. I do think this was when he was in the Merchant Marines.

Later we lived on a ranch and we had horses and cattle. I loved it during my teen years and grew up loving animals. I was given the choice of helping inside with dishes and other inside chores, or to help Bud work outside fixing fence and feeding the horses, goats, cattle and chickens. It was a real working ranch in many ways. Well that was an easy choice for me. I would spend hours outside with my dad and the animals. A very special time in my life.

Buddy was in the service, I was a little girl when many of the stories related to this time were told, so don't remember alot of his war stories. I do enjoy looking through his scrap books of pictures of his medals and with him in uniform, with his buddies. He was in Korea, the Philippines and was stationed up in Alaska for a time. He was in the Navy and later in the Merchant Marines, do they exist anymore? When he was stationed in Alaska, he would cut records that he made while playing in bars passing the hat, telling his mom how he and the boys were having a great time and not to worry, and sing and play a song. I have these records and want to copy them. He wanted to join the service again after leaving the service but they said he was too old. My dad was always a strong determined person, hard on the outside, by that I mean he scared the shit out of alot of folks, me included in some ways. But he had a soft heart and was very gentle and loving to his family. I look at his journals, poems and photo albums of him with his friends and try to imagine what it was like for him.

My dad was very talented with playing the mandolin, and a few other instruments. What was sad is that we only have a few recordings of his playing during his prime, (I need to get them copied), but most of his recordings, are when he lost his hearing, and his playing really deteriorated. Bud was also very artistic. He would draw cartoon characters on duffel bags for guys in the service and did cartooning for fun. I remember how he drew a big Indian with a tomahawk in the bedroom full size coming right at you. He also loved puzzles, especially cryptoquotes, a deciphering game kind of.
I miss him dearly, but often think of him. Most of my memories with him was when I was a little girl, as he started slowing down when I was an adult. How I wish I could have enjoyed a beer with him and talked of real substance type topics.

While I have many good memories, there were also some bad ones too. I have forgiven him for those times, and have moved on. All families have this, the good with the bad, get over it, and I have.

I don't remember him ever being afraid of anything except....Spiders. Ha ha. When he was a very old guy already retired for several years, he whipped off the covers while in bed having felt/finding a spider had crawled across his legs and freaked out. For a long time after he spent telling us how big the spider was. The spider kept getting bigger with every retelling, ;) Other than that nothing scared him.

Here's to you Buddy.....I love you

Dixie Chicks

While I don't agree with much of their politics, I heard their recent song and it kind of fits my perspective. I know what their intention was but using my perspective and putting the right emphasis from who in place here it fits;

'Can't Make Nice Now'.



"Forgive sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go around and around and around

It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it".

The Dixie Chicks.

In the back of one of their videos was the statement;

'Talking without thinking is like shooting without aiming'.

How true that is.

I Miss You

Happy Birthday Buddie! I love you. I keep your memory alive in my heart.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

There Is No "WE"

There is no "we'.

"We" don't need to talk, I've learned all I need to know. I am done. As I've said earlier, I don't need your drama. Interesting your timing, that only after your soulmate kicks your ass out do you want to talk.

You do however need to mail me the taxes, sign the quit deed correctly, sign the title correction paper, and get the pile of motorcycle parts and spotlights off the property. You have been in contempt of court for a very long time.

Besides coming to the property to remove these items, I don't want your sorry ass anywhere around me. Stay away from me. For all of the years I stood by you, took care of you, loved you, shared with you. For you to fuck around on me all throughout our marriage, lie to me constantly while looking me right in the face, you are not the person I thought you were. I don't know who you are, except that I know you aren't the caliber person that I would want to have anything to do with.

How dare you do this routine with me. I can see right through you. Leave me alone, and stay far away from me.

Hell, move back to New York, there is nothing holding you back here except for transferring your drug rehab program.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Gold Diggers

Gold diggers are an interesting breed, and that's putting it mildly.

It's sickening how some folks seem to be oblivious to being "had". That they think or want to feel that they are actually being loved and/or cared about. To falsely be made to think that the other person actually cares for them, that the fact that they will be coming into a great deal of money has nothing to do with it. Yeah right. But instead are being fed a line of shit.
To then be taken advantage of emotionally probably, but taken advantage of financially in that it will effect my kids just kills me.
Wake up and smell the coffee. Sigh. While you may feel you are "soul mates" or so "in love", it's not a stretch to think that the other person only is sticking around because of your "money potential". Especially while knowing that she has known from the very beginning. She knew your cousin 15 years ago and that the family had money back then, don't fool yourself. Take a step back and really look at what her attraction is to you, regardless of your feelings toward her.
A pre nuptual only takes care of the money you bring into a marriage, not if you get money and wealth dropped into your lap after you're married. And that's even if you get a prenuptual. Is it possible for you to consider creating some type of will and or testament to ensure that the kids get their share, rather than seeing it disappear being taken by this gold digger? The kids and most other folks see this very clearly, it seems everyone but you.
To see how in less than a year, this person has gotten her grip around your financial future and stands to get alot of money just kills me. To think of how she ended up with such a big house and all the trimmings from her probable break up a few years back, and learn how her business is done, at least online, and now how she is suing a local business to try and get money, you are out of your mind.
I would like to think you haven't lost all of your marbles, please look at securing your children's financial future by getting something legally set up to protect them and their inheritance. You seem to have been choosing her over your own children. Really look at why your kids have been upset with the way you've been acting/thinking. Your children want to love you (I believe), but you need to snap out of this if you want to have any relationship with them. I'm out of the loop, I'm truly just looking out for the kids future.
Hey it may be a way to also see if this gold digger sticks around to just be with you. Take this challenge, I hope you have the guts to actually look into this.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Riding Shot Gun Duties


While driving out to Kansas City approximately a 12 hour drive one way, it's always better to have the cops in front of you rather than behind you.With a radar detector, and having my daughter riding shotgun with binoculars in hand on the prowl for cops what a system.Construction, accidents, and holiday traffic made for a long drive, but being with my daughter made it pleasurable. A wonderful navigator and DJ. Gas was 20 cents cheaper on the road than what it costs in Colorado, really, that was a nice surprise.
We drove out for a Bar Mitzvah, what a wonderful time seeing all of the family. There were however several accidents and sad events that occured. One cousin ended up in the hospital on antibiotics and missed the Bar Mitzvah entirely, another hurt his knee, in the same immediate family I might add, and another's father had a heart attack. My mother in law was still grieving having just lost her husband a few weeks ago. Seeing her the morning that she was to fly back was very hard. She told me of her fears of going home to an empty house. My sister in law lives very close and I thank God for her and her husband. It still will be hard getting through these next few months.
While out there, I got some good pictures, so I will be busy organizing them and sharing them with everyone getting them sent out in the mail.

Monday, May 22, 2006

To Not Feel Anything

At times I would like to think that I could be forgiving....
But some things are just unforgivable. Lies, deceit, affairs etc etc. Folks tell me that I need to forgive to get through these feelings of anger. But I've come to the realization that I'm starting to not feel anything at all towards him. He seems to have told others untrue stories of how things happened, big surprise there, and if that's his way of dealing with it, it only makes me sad that some folks actually believe his shit. In the past he has acted so horrible towards me, and now while others watch he is sooo nice, saying things like, have a nice trip, making it look like he still cares, what bullshit. And even if he truly feels that he does care, fuck him, it doesn't make up for all the crap that he shoveled my way for our whole marriage.
Karma has already got his bitch girlfriend in that she broke her foot. And again he's trying to get something out of it looking into suing the restaurant. Sigh. He'll be getting his payback for his crap all too soon. Knowing this has been more than comforting.
Seeing this lying sack of shit while back in New York he seems to have been more focused in getting "stuff", rather than concerning himself with how his mother will be in the absence of her husband. Knowing that his dad drove a lexus with all the bells and whistles, making sure that his mom knows that he doesn't have a car several times twice that I heard him say. I felt like telling her how he fell asleep at the wheel and crashed several cars and only just got back his drivers license from the diversion program. It is so phony to watch him act like he cares, it drove me nuts to watch his bullshit, but I digress. He's showing himself to be a gold digger instead of a caring son, just very sad. Hopefully he will figure it out in his lifetime, but I have some serious doubts as he can be an arrogant asshole.

Life Goes On....

I just got back from New York having attended my father in law's funeral. He was a wonderful man, and we had such a good visit while he was out here for the graduation. It's hard to believe that he's really gone. He will really be missed.
He had a massive heart attack aggitated by pneumonia from a virus that he may have caught while on the plane, we'll never know.
I'm very glad that we had his 80th birthday party last January with all the family together, and then this recent family gathering with my daughter's graduation.
His wife now alone, I hope she gets stronger and learns to manage on her own. My son told me that he felt grandma would be strong just how I was. While back in New York, seeing how supportive members from her congregation were, it's as though she has a second family that will be looking in on her taking care that she has everything that she may need.
While I'm divorcing my husband, I'm not divorcing the family, I love these folks and want to continue a relationship with them. We've been family for more than 25 years. I'm looking forward to a Bar Mitzvah next weekend in Kansas City that will be a very fun time. My daughter and I will be driving out and will have a good time being together on the road trip. My son will be flying out for the weekend, so we truly will all be together.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Can You Hear Me Now?

I just got a phone call for Mother's Day from my son. What makes this all the more special, is that it was made from a submarine! I love you too honey, thanks for thinking of me. :)

Shine Shine Shine


What a fabulous week. My daughter just had her 4 graduation ceremonies this past week, and family and friends came from out of town and locally to help her celebrate this wonderful achievement.
BOOYA!
She had her more personal graduation commencement exercises from Music, Fine Arts and Japanese, plus the graduation for all of the graduating seniors at Folsom Field.
PLUS....
Her honors thesis 'Spectral Beasties', is now showing at the Fiske Planetarium and will be on permanent display for all of this summer.
She has been shining all of her life, so it has been the greatest seeing her get the acknowledgement she so well deserves.
Way to go honey :) I love you

Monday, May 01, 2006

May Day

I am very upset with how our country's leaders aren't listening to us. Allowing these very large protest marches in our country, of illegal aliens waving their Mexican flag and demanding rights here in this country has made me very angry, and it is an outrage. The cost alone in enforcing security for these marches is costing a pretty penny as well.
We need to start enforcing our laws that are already on the books, and build a fence. We should not allow illegal aliens; rights, housing, jobs etc without legal status.
The majority of illegals don't seem interested in assimilating to our way of life, or in learning english, and there's the difference: The Immigrants want Freedom, the Illegal Aliens want to Freeload.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

"FINE UPSTANDING LYING SACK OF SHIT"

It's interesting how he feels that he's the one wronged here.

What a Fine upstanding lying sack of shit
"LSOS"

I've recently learned how he's not only been lying to me but to others as well. He probably lies to himself.

He's been such a fan of talking about getting back to his good spiritualism/energy/karma; with all of his bad behavior, actions and deceit it'll come back to bite him in the butt, and I predict very soon. This just coming from me, and I'm no psychic reader.

Funny, but what I remember most of his talking about his past "spiritualism" looking back in the 70's, was mostly describing devil worship/witchcraft/metaphysical type stuff. His current girlfriend is helping him get back to this spiritualism/darkness. Why oh why didn't I see him and his actions more clearly all those years ago.

Love is blind as they say, but truth is like getting laser surgery and seeing very clearly for the very first time in my life.

While I lost alot of years with this despicable lying sack of shit, at least I have rid myself of him. Living without him these past few months have been wonderful, aside from the divorce issues. Looking back at my having to put up with his anger and rages, using the crystal changed him into a man that was very troubled.

He wouldn't brush his teeth for weeks, didn't bathe very often, his hygeine in general was awful. He didn't comb or brush his hair, when it was long it was horrible, he would just pull it back into an uncombed pony tail, so when he cut it that was a bit of an improvement. His poor hygeine mixed with his short temper that the crystal methamphetamine was doing made him a real mess.

I do hope he gets his life together, not for me I'm done, but he needs to get it together for the kids. I want my kids to have a father. I do have a feeling that his relationship with the kids will always be tainted, which is very sad.

At least I still have alot of good years ahead of me to get enjoyment out of life. I hope my kids stay ever strong to get through this. I know how hard this has been on them and I'm so sorry that there isn't alot I can do to help them, other than to be there for them.

I am so very glad that he honored the one rule I insisted on, that rule being to keep the drugs away from the kids. I didn't want him using around the kids, this was a rule that he hated, but again I am so glad that this was enforced by me. My kids I don't think would be where they are in life today if they would have been subjected to drugs in their lives. This was a constant battle, once the kids started junior high and high school. He would leave crap out on the counter at night almost wanting the kids to see the stuff so he could come out of the closet. I found myself doing "rounds" every night clearing up the junk and putting it all away. He on several occasions would tell me how he wanted to do drugs with our daughter, as he wanted to "connect with her on this level". This LSOS actually was gleeful when she went off to college, saying that she would probably be introduced to drugs while at college. He seemed very disappointed when she told of how she had gone to a party and hated how stupid everyone acted and disliked that druggie atmosphere.

That's when I started telling him that the kids needed a father, not a friend.

I'm putting this ugly divorce behind me as soon as I get the papers from the court. I am moving on and I will survive this. I have great kids, my family and friends are the best. I love my inlaws and want to keep connected to them, I didn't divorce them. My inlaws are not aware of any of these horrid details, as my sister in laws told me how they didn't feel their parents could handle the stress of learning about all of his fuck ups; many affairs, falling asleep at the wheel, getting suspended until 2007, his class 3 felony charges, and his crystal methamphetamine addiction, being in their 80's. I don't want to hurt them any more than they already have been. He told them that "we separated", I wouldn't let him get away with that crap, and told them that he had an affair and left me.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

My Daughter Has Reminded Me Of This Song....

ARTIST: Timbuk3
TITLE: The Future's So Bright I Gotta Wear Shades
Lyrics and Chords
Intro: / A - - GD / /
I study nuclear science, I love my classes
I got a crazy teacher, he wears dark glasses

/ A7 - - - / /
{Refrain}
Things are going great, and they're only getting better
I'm doing all right, getting good grades
The future's so bright
I gotta wear shades, I gotta wear shades
/ D - - - A - - GD / D - A - / G - - - / A - - GD / /
I've got a job waiting for my graduation
Fifty thou' a year'll buy a lot of beer
{Refrain}
Well I'm heavenly blessed and worldly wise
I'm a peeping-tom techie with X-ray eyes
{Refrain}
I study nuclear science, I love my classes
I got a crazy teacher, he wears dark glasses
{Refrain}
I gotta wear shades, I gotta wear shades

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Astrophysics In Combination With Art....






My daughter is very creative and sometimes shows her true feelings in her art.
While she is graduating with 3 majors, Fine Arts, Music and Japanese; I got the feeling from this picture that she was feeling bad that she didn't choose Astro Physics or Astronomy as one of her majors. She has been really showing alot of interest in this direction and has been working in the astrophysics building with folks that work with NASA and such. Constantly talking about all of the cool stuff that she does while there working. So I was feeling bad that she didn't learn that she was interested in this until after 7 years of college.

Then she started her Honors program and thesis this past year. It's simply incredible how she managed to put all of this scientific work into a beautiful art form, blending together her art with science. Her gallery opening was April 7th, and was a big success. It was very well attended, and I am just so very proud of her. Below is a photo of her 'Spectral Beasties' art show.

Solar Spectrum and Absorption Beasties
Acrylic on foam


What do you get when you look at a rainbow in detail? You begin to see it interrupted by dark bands. These bands are caused when the light is absorbed by molecules and elements present between the hot part of the sun and our eyes, some found in the earth’s atmosphere, some found in sun’s atmosphere. The most prominent bands were first classified by German physicist Joseph von Fraunhofer in the 19th century with the letters H through K, some of which are illustrated here by being orally absorbed by beasties. Each element and molecule absorbs only a very specific frequency of light, which tells us what the sun is composed of.

This painting spans the visible segment of the electromagnetic spectrum (roughly 400-700 nm), which also includes radio waves, microwaves, infrared radiation, ultraviolet radiation, x-rays, and gamma rays. The sun’s light is strongest in the visible part of the spectrum, which may be why our eyes have adapted to see it best.

Emission Beasties of Selected Elements
Acrylic on canvas

These beasties lie near the floor in their ground state. When an atom loses energy it emits a photon. The photons emitted show up in bright bands against a dark background in exactly the same positions that they appear in when absorbing light. Scientists can compare the spectrums of known gases with those of unknown elements in spectrums of celestial objects, such as the sun, in order to understand their compositions. Can you match the absorbed twin D lines in the solar spectrum above, to the emitted twin yellow lines in one of these paintings?

The five paintings exhibit emission spectra of five elements (from left to right):

Na – Sodium, found in trace amounts in the sun

He – Helium, composing 8% of the sun

H – Hydrogen, composing 92% of the sun

O2 – Oxygen, largely in the earth’s atmosphere, also found in trace amounts in the sun

Hg – Mercury, found in trace amounts in the sun

K 393nm Ca
H 397nm Ca
E 527nm Fe
D1 and D2 doublet 589nm and 590nm Na
B 688nm O2 (earth’s atmosphere)

Doppler Fishes

Oil on canvas

When a train approaches, the pitch of its whistle seems high and then when it passes the pitch drops. This is because the whistle’s sound waves are getting squished together as the train comes towards you, and stretched out as it moves away.

The same thing happens with light. As a light source in space such as the Andromeda Galaxy moves towards us, its light waves get compressed and the patterns in its spectral lines all get shifted towards the blue end of the spectrum. The opposite thing happens to nearly all other celestial objects: they are red-shifted because they are moving away. Due to red-shift we can tell the universe is expanding.

So as you can see, she has learned how to incorporate science into an art form. There is simply nothing that she can't do, I'm convinced of this.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

April Fool's

Dag nab it, my son got me again this year. I even talked with both kids this morning telling them that I was on my toes about it and how I wasn't going to let them get me today. Well that was early this morning and only a few hours ago my son called me and I wasn't thinking about April Fool's Day any longer. Damn!
Well I won't let them get me next year!
I actually sent them an email prank regarding Chef from South Park but that was kind of lame. Sigh.
Honey you really out did yourself. Although the one you pulled while in California was the most intense one.